Friday, December 14, 2012

My name is my name

RIP BlueShame: March 30th 2009 - December 13th 2012

BlueShame. A lot of you discovered this blog when it had that somewhat melancholy and definitely made up word as its title. It will always have a special meaning to me, but as things moved onward and upward in my life, I felt like the quirky cynicism in "BlueShame" didn't fit me anymore. I wanted positivity, light, and something that made a bit more sense for a site that's just full of my thoughts and mandates.

All the easy stuff – etc - was taken, but I knew the new name would come to me eventually, so I tucked the thought in the back of my mind and handled all my other to-dos. Every now and then, I'd brainstorm again. And one night while lying in bed recharging, thinking and tweeting, “Known as Blue” dawned on me [because hey, I am known as Blue] and I jotted it down. Two days later, I made it official. The new blog name works beautifully for me and the site, because after all, this space is all about me, and both the name and the blog reflect who I am. [And as an added plus, no one on any social media accounts had it!]
"MY NAME IS MY NAME!" - Marlo “Black” Stanfield [aka one of my favorite fictional characters of all time – I respect him for his poise and skills in magic].
I also realized that if I was going to sell digital media packages to clients with a focus on building brands, I should hone my own first. My “name” became important. It's one of the first things that people online see, and the difference in response when introducing myself under one name versus another is already astoundingly noticeable.

I am 24 [and a half!] with my own wonderful place in my dream city and my own business. Plus, I have a crazy high self-esteem, a fabulous closet and real love from many genuine sources in my life. All things considered, I am living my dream. And actually, I'm probably living the dream of many daydreaming young ladies all over the world too.

If you've been reading this blog for a while, you know one thing to be true about me: I have a very high self esteem that I believe is truly unshakeable. I have gone through my fair share of tumultuous life experiences and the gamut of emotions as a result, and there was never a point where I loathed or even mildly disliked myself. I never lost faith in myself, if anything I lost faith in the world and what it had to offer instead. I consider myself extremely lucky to have been born this confident, and my undeniable allure is one of my most vital and cherished assets.

I mention this because I know that without this unrelenting faith in myself, I would not be where I am today, in any way shape or form. It took a lot of honesty, a lot of courage, a lot of focus, a lot of self-reflection, a lot of trial and error, a lot of quitting the things that didn't work and - even though I consider myself cautious and smart - a lot of learning things the hard way. The hurdles that I so painstakingly leaped over, and the challenges and walls that I beat down with my bare fists are the same ones that hold other people back everyday.

I hate to sound clichĂ© , but going after what you want in life is so worth it. This isn't a dress rehearsal. It's a one shot deal, and you either seize the day or get lost. I used to be confused as to why most entertainers would immediately go into the ugly cry upon accepting an award for their work, but now I understand. It's a struggle to climb to the top of that hill, but once you get there, all you can feel is an immense sense of accomplishment. Once you give yourself a moment and let it all catch up to you, you can finally taste the sweet sweet victory you hungered for, instead of the blood, sweat and tears you powered through for so long. 
“I left my entire family, got the cheapest apartment I could find, and ate shit until somebody would listen.- Lady Gaga
Depending on what you believe, the world is ending in one week. And even if it doesn't, a new year will be here in two. Take this time to think, plan and reflect. And then, when you are ready [or not]...

Make a name for yourself.

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